In Crescent all i experienced was victory. Win after win in the area i thrived in. But in jc, that all changed. It was like i had to get used to losing because it was all i ever encountered. I have tried my best. You cant say i didnt have enough faith because that was all i had yesterday. Full of faith that we could do it. But nothing was enough. Maybe my only fault in jc was making the wrong decision. Because i hate losing. I really fucking hate it especially when all ive ever done is my best. I have persevered. I have tried for 2 years. I have done my part. I officially give up. Come next fri i doubt im putting in much effort anymore. Not gonna train anymore because there is just no point. I have other things to focus on now; things i sacrificed for a losing cause. Not anymore. After ive tried my best and it doesnt work, i stop trying. I dont need to lose anymore than i already have.